Brixey Banter

"I am alone but adored by a hundred thousand more"

Mom and I are watching 17 Again. I say this with very little shame. I also would like to add that I thought Zac Efron, in all his young glory, did a fine job. AND he looked fine. Just sayin'.

For some reason, every time I am in the car, I repeat the song "Supermassive Black Hole" by Muse over and over. I just can't get enough of that song. I love the music in it. Please believe me when I say that it has NOTHING WHATSOEVER to do with the fact that it's the credit song on Twilight. Seriously. I just like the song.

Supermassive Black Hole - Muse

That and the song lyrics on the post title "The Last High" by the Dandy Warhols. Another sweet song. Over and over again. I never get tired of it.

Also, my latest favorite band is Paramore. Am I turning into a degraded teenager? I mean, I don't work. I eat junk food constantly. Thank God I stopped sleeping until after 9 am!

In the past week or so, I have watched the following movies:

The Blind Side

Julie & Julia

Star Trek (again)

Live Free and Die Hard (again)

G.I. Joe (sucked)

Reno 911: Miami (or whatever it's called)

17 Again

Surrogates

Paranormal Activity

The Hangover

The Perfect Getaway

Sherlock Holmes

Whip It!

I think that's it. I loved Whip It! of course. And The Hangover was way better the second time I saw it for some reason. Maybe because one can laugh more freely in your own living room than at the movie theater with a date?

I would have found Paranormal Activity scarier, but I watched it in the middle of the way - while being completely distracted by bird house painting. Sherlock Holmes was better the first time. I can't get Niecy Nash's ginormous cottage cheese ass cheeks out of my head, so I can't necessarily say I enjoyed that movie. 17 Again was actually kind of cute. I like Leslie Mann. I really love Bruce Willis so even if I hate one of his movies, I won't admit it. Yeah, that even counts Hudson Hawk.

Mom and I also finished the last 4 episodes of the United States of Tara: Season 1. She enjoyed it. Now I'm looking forward to it Season 2!

Farrah and Gus' annual derby party is this upcoming weekend! I'm terribly excited although I still don't have a hat to wear!

Christie found these amazingly adorable cookies to make for the party. That Bakerella just kind of rocks all the time.

Holy crap! My computer just STOPPED last night and Typepad actually saved everything. Amazing! Thank goodness too because I can't even remember any of that crap I wrote up above.

Gah. I'm feeling very uninspired today. It must be the crummy weather.

I think I'll go work on my cute little birdhouse. It needs some work. Maybe I'll write more later? We'll see!

In the town where I was born lived a man who sailed to sea and he told us of his life in the land of submarines

It's so wrong when you realize that most of the "hits" you've had in one day are your own!!

I've been looking for a picture of something I made a few years ago and I can't seem to find it anywhere! I could have sworn I posted about it, but apparently I'm wrong!! I'll have to search cds of pics when I get home tonight! I really need those pics!

Nope. It wasn't in the craft blog either. Darn!

Okay. So I got a haircut (woo!) and dyed my hair. Plus, for the last three days I have done my Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred video. My arms hurt. They shake when I lift them up. I know. Lame.

I'm sitting at the library adding Pink and 30 Seconds to Mars to my itunes. I feel like a kid. Seriously? 30 Seconds to Mars? Jared Leto? Really?

I also added Imogene Heap and Portishead too so I don't feel so bad. Have I mentioned how much I love this library?

So Jon sent me a pic of Mt. Rushmore yesterday. He has sent me a couple more pics today on his way back to Lawrence. Date tomorrow night! I'm nervous again!

I sat down and watched 8 1/2 last night. You crazy people who like it are insane. I mean, it was okay but maybe I was just in a weird mood because it seemed a bit excruciating to me. I know that sounds pretty harsh, but it was. I couldn't wait for it to end. But no, it kept going and going and going...who in 1963 made movies over 2 hours long? Fellini. That's who.

I need to get home and get stuff cleaned up before my date tomorrow and also so I can work on Fe's bday presents. I also still need to hem my stupid jeans. Grrr...

I finally contacted the Missouri Cobra people. So any of you out there who lost your job and had insurance through your employer but they didn't offer you Cobra, well they were supposed to. Federal law states that businesses under 20 employees DO NOT have to offer their employees Cobra. However, Missouri state law says that ALL businesses, regardless of their size, must offer Cobra as long as that employer is still providing their other employees insurance. Take that BlueBike! I knew you missed something. Plus, right now there is a government subsidiary that allows you to only pay 35% of your insurance a month while they cover the remaining 65%. This is good for people like me who suffer from panic attacks, anxiety and stupid girlie issues. This means I don't have to dish out over $200 just to go see my doctor and get 'scripts written.

Not much else is going on. It's been quite warm around here (in comparison to the single and negative digits we were seeing last week and before). The snow is melting and it's just overall gross outside. I did wear my yellow duckie socks with my purple tennis shoes today. I'm weird. I know. But they are so cute!

Apparently today is the first day of school for the students because the library is pretty dead. I mean, it's not THAT dead, but less people than usual. Not as many kids. Much more quiet too!

Okay. I better get going. I have some sewing to do! As usual!

"Does your depravity know no bounds?"

Unemployment Day 74

Mom, Randy and myself went to see Sherlock Holmes. It was good, of course. However, I would say that about nearly all RDJr. movies except his super bad ones.

It was kind of slow but it was still good. Jude Law was great. RDJr. was great. Rachel McAdams was her usual cute ass self. It was just a good movie. Although sometimes, with British accents and quick talking, I have to think a little bit to figure out what they are saying.

Also today I finished Mom's Christmas present. The casserole carrier one. I need to take a picture of it because it came out really cute. I did take pictures of the apron but haven't loaded my camera stuff onto the computer yet. I did start to move my music to my BRAND NEW PORTABLE HARD DRIVE!! Woo! Now I can finally add ALL my music to my Itunes! Woo!

Later, gators!

"Try and you'll remember what you used to be"

Unemployment Day 8

So, sorry about the bad language last night. Maybe I had a few too many beers?

Colleen and I stood at Pete's feet. Just like Adam and I not too long ago. This time, he was wearing lace up boots, not unzipped boots. And it was darker but I'm pretty sure his pants weren't nearly so tight. Man, he was CUTE!

Plus, he played a Big Star song. How freakin' awesome is that?? Big Star! (Just looked it up and it turns out that album I didn't buy with Pete and Scarlett Johansson had a cover of that song. Interesting.)

Colleen and I went to Free State when I got to town and ate a huge bowl of chili con queso with our $1.75 drafts. That dip was AWESOME. So much for those 3 lbs I lost! After that (we had walked around for quite a bit too, wandering into various stores) we ended up at a place called Genovese. I think that's the name. I had a beer there and she had two. Then on to the Granada.

The Granada is a pretty small venue. I really liked it. Except the bathrooms were super weird. And tight. With no mirror in the upstairs one. The opening band, Alberta Gross, was okay. I'm pretty sure the lead singer was a heroine addict. Wait, he's a struggling musician, maybe meth? He had a good voice, very high. They were a bit loud for my tastes.

Then I made friends with a girl, Amber, who was standing alone. She had come by herself so the three of us positioned ourselves directly under Pete's microphone. Oh Pete. *sigh*

It was a great show. A guy, Drew, hung out with us too. He recognized me from the show at the Voodoo Lounge. I guess I chatted with him that night. I def. had too much to drink that night (liquor) so I can't say I remember every person I met - which was a lot because I talk even MORE when I drink. Shame.

So the four of us hung out after the show but apparently Colleen and I aren't Pete's type. Darn. Oh. And I snatched the setlist from the bass player's area after the show. Colleen snapped the "Yorn" tape from his mike for me. Pics to come :)

Colleen and I grabbed a sandwich from Jimmy John's before our walk home. It was a beautiful night out. Not too cool.

I haven't done a lot today. Finally got my unemployment papers in the mail so I'll be doing all that online crapola in a little while. Also need to get to the career center and do whatever it is I'm supposed to be doing through them. I do have a phone interview on Friday for a potential job, but I'm still not sure about all the details of it, so we'll see how that goes.

I can't even begin to describe to you all how awesome the trees are along the Plaza creek. So amazing and so many shades of red, yellow, orange and even burgundy. I love this time of year when the trees begin to change. I need to find my broken camera and take it in to see if it can be repaired. If not, I know what I'll be asking for Christmas this year!

I also wish I could have a weatherman's job because inaccuracy seems to be their forte. It was supposed to be nice and sunny today - which it is for the most part. However, it did rain (storm) last night in Lawrence and from what I watched on Fox News yesterday (cause I actually got it instead of just CBS and who wants to watch the soaps all afternoon when you can watch Judge Joe, Judge Judy and My Name Is Earl while you sew???) the rain isn't supposed to be here until late tonight. LIARS!!

I am fairly motivated today to finally clean up that stupid unorganized second bedroom. I got the curtains done yesterday and need to rehang the curtain rods that got ripped out of the wall on accident. My walls are paper thin and nearly impossible to find studs in so all of the curtain rods Mom and I put in seem to be pulling out of the wall. It's so annoying. I even used drywall anchors and long screws!

I'm going to work on my revised Things To Do list right now.

1. Clean and organize 2nd bedroom after switching bedrooms a few weeks ago.
3. Finish painting chair.
4. Finish 2nd bedroom curtains.
5. Rehang 2nd bedroom curtain rod.
6. Fill ginormous holes from picture removal.
7. Rehang pictures.
8. Figure out what the hell I'm going to be for Halloween.
9. Make Halloween costume.
10. Start tote/purse business.
11. Lose 15 12 lbs. (hahahaha)
12. Order Christie's birthday present.
13. Make Colleen's class cookies.
14. Take cookies to Colleen's class.
15. Take Rockband to Colleen's.
16. Play Rockband at Colleen's.
17. Design Andrew's new room.
18. Talk Josh into allowing the design.
19. Talk Josh into allowing me to spend more than $10 on anything.
20. Read the remaining 4 books on my 1% Well Read List.
21. Watch all seasons of Six Feet Under.
22. Get a stupid antennae so I can get more channels than just CBS.
23. And be able to move the ironing board/antennae out of the middle of the living room where it must be in order to get CBS.
24. Figure out why my stupid Twitter account suddenly died on Typepad.
25. Clean out bedroom closet and take summer clothes to Mom's house.
26. Figure out unemployment stuff.
27. Figure out Career Center stuff.
28. Find a job.

That's all I got for now.

     

"And I have made mistakes in my life - That I just can't hide"

Today is a good day.

Ally McBeal is released on DVD.

Finally.

Taste of a poison paradise

Some people suffer from toxic friends. I know we've probably all had one or two within our lifetimes. Lucky for me, I left most of mine (or rather, my only one) in Memphis when I left...yeah, it took getting away from the situation to realize that it really was toxic.

Anywho, like I said, I don't suffer from toxic friends. Oh no. Mine is much worse. It seems like every guy that I end up crushing on (or even falling head over heels for) turns out to be toxic in some way. Whether he is excellent at making promises and never coming through with them or in general, taking me to the dumps in some form or another. It stinks. It's as if I can't even seem to LIKE the nice guys. "Too nice. Next please." I like the ones who make me wait on them hand and foot without a thought of getting anything in return myself. Or dumping me to go off and have fun with their friends. Yeah, it's a disease I suffer from and I really need to find a cure!

So why am I bringing this up? Well, I'm sure you have guessed by now. Yup. I got stood up again. Not even a phone call this time. Nothing. Nada. A whole lot of ignoring went on. Of course, with the help of my super supportive friends, I was able to successfully DELETE HIS PHONE NUMBER FROM MY PHONE in order to prevent my dumb ass from making future phone calls or texts. My friends, they are so good to me.

Anyway, I didn't get upset or anything...well, not like really. I was upset just because I think it's such a college thing to do. Otherwise, I have just moved on with my life. No sense cry over spoiled AND spilled milk.

So I didn't do much over the weekend because my NYC plans (I was going to go regardless of a call or not) didn't happen. It was POURING DOWN RAIN all day Saturday. It was warm but gross outside. Not a happy day to go into the city. Sunday it was just plain windy and chilly, although sunny. At least I got to nap a lot!

I also watched American Psycho. I liked it at first, but totally lost interest by the time Christian Bale's character went really cuckoo near the end. Why do I find him so attractive? He has, like, NO lips. I don't know what the deal is, but he could easily appear in a dirty dream or two for me and you would hear absolutely NO complaints from me!

I worked out last night. Woo. Studied wood. Even bigger woo. Ha! Only like 150 pages left to study!

I'm going to TRY to work on a new banner for the blog but we'll just have to see how that goes. Probably VERY slowly.

Baby you're foul in clear conditions, but you're handsome in the fog

I did forget to mention yesterday that I went and got Netflix despite not needing it. I need to study. Yup. But I decided to get the one at a time unlimited dvd. You know, for weekends and slow tv nights where I'm not studying.

My first movie was 3:10 To Yuma and I loved it! I don't know why I like modern westerns so much. It's not like Christian Bale is particularly good looking in the movie...nor any of them. They look like filthy men living in a time where body odor was the measure of how hard of a worker you were. Personal hygiene wasn't big back then and there was lots of dust and grit and snakes and people who might just shoot you just because (not unlike many cities today minus the actual dust and snakes, but whatever).

I haven't seen the original 3:10 To Yuma, nor do I want to. I like remakes. I'm fine with remakes. I wish that both Bale and Crowe didn't have that shaggy hair in the movie. Also, Johnny Whitworth made an appearance in the beginning before he was shot by Wade. Johnny Whitworth is a hottie.

There was plenty of action to be had and just enough blood to make it worthy. It was a great story and an overall good movie. Two thumbs up! Woo!

Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at.

Hi. Well, it's been a bit of a somber week. Lots of bad news and just not enough bad news.

Before the bad news of the week, I will tell you all the highlight of my weekend: seeing Juno. I went to the noon showing on Sunday and enjoyed every minute of the movie and my lunch of popcorn and a 32 oz. water (it's still Lent yo. No sodie pop for me...only 17 more days...). I thought it was great. Some of things they said (slang) totally cracked my ass up. I don't approve of 16 year olds having sex NOR dealing so nonchalantly about the issue (hello? condoms if you're going to be sexually active at age 16!) but the movie was so good.

The first bit (not in order of bad to worse, but more like chronological order) was that I was basically stood up this weekend. Kind of. First, he had a thing for work and they stayed out really late drinking way too much so he wasn't feeling up to much of anything on Saturday. He felt really bad...well, it turns out that he was feeling extra special bad because he was coming down with that nasty bit of cold everyone seems to be getting. I'm going to keep on eating my Vitamin C crap and then throw caution to the wind by saying, everyone but me. I'm sure, after those words, I will be its next victim. Argh.

Then, on Monday, my mom emails me and asks me if I know this guy who died because his name sounded so familiar. Yup, I did. I actually dated him for a millisecond my first year of college. Millisecond. The last time I saw Deric (LaFevers) was 4 years ago this July. We were in WP for Leslie's bachelorette party and the night before our big float trip and camping trip (in a cabin. duh), we went to Fillie's outside of WP for some good old drinkin' (Farrah had to miss the actual canoe trip because she drank too much). D.L. came over and bought us all shots and then after the bars closed, we went to his friend's house IN WP. So weird that he is no longer with us. I mean, not like I've seen him in FOREVER, but very sad. The paper said something about a toxicology report. That boy could drink somethin' fierce. If he did die of the drink, it would be wrong to toast him, but if I had a drink right now, that's what I would do: I would toast Deric LaFevers and his zest for life and things fun.

Yesterday, I got some very bad news on my latest girlie incident. So, some of you may or may not know, but for (OMG, has it really been this long) ten years, I have been dealing with abnormal paps (girlie things). I have had 4 biopsies (colposcopies), 2 (or 3?) cryo thingies and an "annual" first every 4 months and now every 6 months. For the first time in MANY years, my last pap came up NORMAL. Sweet. NORMAL. Hallelujah!! I just had one last week and guess what? It's abnormal again...in a different way. So I have to go on ST. PATRICK'S DAY to have another biopsy done. It's just gone on SO LONG that it's terribly upsetting. The doctor always jokes "well, if you had a baby, it would probably do away with the bad part" (not quite so eloquently of course). Yeah, let me get right on that:

Shoes? Check.
Makeup? Check.
Earrings? Check.
Baby? Check.

Whatever. I think that FOR ME life should be traditional. First comes the love, then comes the marriage, then comes the baby sitting in the carriage. But life isn't turning out to be so traditional. And that sucks. But I don't think I'm quite ready to go out, get knocked up and then HOPEFULLY all my medical issues with just be whisked away. I mean, it's not that I don't WANT to get married and have kids, it's just that I'm not LOOKING for that right now. All I'm looking for right now is someone to be happy with.

So after hiding out in the bathroom for a short bit yesterday crying, I went to Kohl's after work for a little retail therapy. And nothing fit. I couldn't even find shoes or earrings that I liked! So much for retail therapy!

Then I just went home and watched The Biggest Loser and studied. And ate badly for dinner. And didn't exercise. Ha! I'll show you, bad day!

I did take my dress in to get fitted. So that's good. It looks a lot better on me when the bust area isn't 4 inches too big around me!! I also got the shoes...now I just need gifts. So much...and an outfit for the rehearsal dinner of course.

I'm supposed to go to NYC this weekend to catch up with the boy but I'm so pessimistic with my life right now, I keep thinking all the worst thoughts instead of my normal happy thoughts, especially after being unintentionally stood up last weekend. *Sigh* It's so hard being me in my own head sometimes.

I'd better get going. Lots of work to do here. Woo.

ps I've decided to label all posts indefinitely from this moment forward with lyrics from one of my favorite bands. And that's because I'm me and you'll just have to deal with it. I might switch up bands from time to time...you just never know.

Oh. And one other thing. I am SOOOOO looking forward to Iron Man, y'all. I've got two words and one abbreviation for you all: ROBERT DOWNEY JR.  Sexy.

Another weekend wasted...not really though.

Whew. What a weekend!

Well, not really, but kind of...for me.

Friday night was so terribly exciting with a spinning class. Ouch. I worked it hard that night. I went home and made a nice little Cooking Light recipe for dinner. I didn't eat much of it (and had halfed the recipe) but it gave me such a stomach ache! I guess it was too rich for me! It was so good too! Oh well...I won't be having it again!

Saturday was a major restful day...well, more like lazy day, but whatever. I got up late, ate some breakfast, cleaned for a bit (a continuation of cleaning that I never finished from the previous weekend) and then sat down to study only to fall asleep within 2 pages. I woke up, snacked, started to study again and fell asleep yet again! I finally got off my lazy butt around 5 or so and went to the grocery store to get ingredients for a few recipes I was going to make but had somehow missed a key ingredient in each. I also bought myself an Amy's Cheese pizza. Yum-o! So low in calories yet so yummy! I studied lots more and was completely asleep by 9:30. How lame!

Sunday I woke up reasonably early (I did practically sleep half of Saturday!) and went to 10 am Mass at Our Lady of Lourdes. Yikes! The place was packed! They had ushers seating people! It was pure craziness! I'm so used to a little church! And being related to like 50% of the people there! I mean, put it this way, according to my bulletin, this church took in $51,000 in collections last weekend! Yikes! Plus, they have 4 Masses on Sunday mornings...I will be going to a different mass next week...too many people for me!

After church, I went home, ate an early lunch of leftover pizza, ran over to a project site I'm starting on this week and took pictures for a meeting we have this afternoon. Pictures went smoothly so I continued on to the gym where I did a circuit training workout (much like the one I did on Thursday night...yes...including the Butt Blaster that freakin' hurts!!). I went home and laid down awaiting a call from Fe and Gus. We ended up meeting for the 2:40 pm showing of Children of Men.

Children of Men. A very interesting concept for a movie (or book). I'm not going to go into details, but I will say that albeit a mildly depressing moving (one of those "the human race is going into extinction" movies) it was a beautiful portrayal of what the future looks like in the eyes of the director (as he translates the script into something we can identify with...). The single scene takes were incredible. It was a very visual movie. Clive Owen, tired as his character was, did a great job in his role. I really enjoyed the movie, although I was quite saddened by the thought of extinction. Not surprising.

Oh. And I really need to read the book because I feel like there are so many things that are left unexplained in the movie...as usual.

After the movie, I went home and cleaned and began cooking. Fe and Gus came over and we had dinner. I made grilled flank steak (cooked on my new indoor grill...I bit overcooked but it was the first thing I had ever cooked on the grill) and Asiago, Bacon and Potato Gratin with a salad. Fe brought over the Bitch wine. It was good. We got a little giggly. Then Fe's eyes started watering...thanks to the kit kats. So they left and I watched Desperate Housewives (taped earlier).

Yesterday we went to Hannibal pretty much all day. I was SO tired on the way back. I ended up leaving right after work, going home and sleeping until 7 am this morning. Hey! The good news is that when you miss dinner you lose a pound! Woo!

Further instructions.

Holy crap!

I just watched the first 20 minutes or so of last week's Lost episode during my lunch break. All I can say is: Ian Somerhalder.

Yum.

Those eyes...that nose...those lips...that face.

Hot. Steaming hot.

More later. I'm SO busy at work!